temporary feel. . .

I don't know what I feel, but I feel different something in my life, when I see another people, they have a different habit and different thinking about some aspect. what's problem??? may be it's not a problem like I think,, it just I still don't know about my self, I can't read. I must do something for find that. I have try, but I feel confuse. . . why it's can happen?

now, i see many people can do everything which can make them be the best in a special line, I have dream, and I have a mission in my life. I must wake up, the world never change if I never change it,  its depend to me, What will I do??? I know,, I must become a productive peple, but I don't know what can I do. Now I just can effort to study and get the maximum result.

I want tell something that when I try to be a different people, of course to be a better peole towards be the best,,,heheh,,,but there are some heart problem,,, in a side I must constant to my decision,, but in other side, I must leav that decision, may be there are some people disaparaging to me, and they say what I do is useless and they think I can't....but I will change their think,, I will estblish to them that they wrong,,and they can't see me as a weak girl. you must underline that.

God, don't ever alienate me from you, I want beside you forever, and god help me in everythings,,, I know you will do it neverthiless I don't request to you, I know you love me. god I have dream, and just you who can realize, I just can effort,

and here I know something about ambiton,  wished, and willpower. I pray all which I want it's from a willpower,, because it's come from our heart, ambition and wished just come from our an iust.

god please let me for share happiness to other people and make they always smile and can always say thanks to you. keep me from arrogant, covet, a lie, etc which can make broke my soul and my self.

oh ya,,I remember something, someone ever say to me "don't think about another people who say a bad about you if you don't feel it. they will happy if I sad, if I angry and other, I must patient and always behave and treat them kindly" I will always remember and try to do it.

god will help me..I believe that,, I unnecessary be afraid. . .I believe I'll be successfull people with god helped,,,,Aamiin,,,,,,,,,and make all smile and laugh, ,, ,